I haven't done any of that. But I haven't neglected the hopes of this being my best year ever. I have lost 24 lbs. to date and am still going strong. I have started a new job where I received a nice pay increase, and have already received another pay increase since starting. I have overcome a pretty horrible winter funk. I also have overcome severe back pain that plagued me for quite sometime beginning this year. Most importantly I have figured out what my real goals are. And I know they have nothing to do with learning a musical instrument, running, or cycling. I would love to do those things but maybe just a weekend here or there.
My real goals, honest goals, not really classified as SMART goals are as follows.
1. I want to have a baby. Anyone near me knows that this challenge is going on two years and it has been heartbreaking.. When my back went out and my weight increased I was pretty much told by two different medical professionals it isn't worth even trying right now. One said it very kindly, the other one not so much. (I no longer see the mean one) So I worked with my very kind dietician beginning in April and we got 24lbs off and she said to keep going and I should start trying for baby again. Which was a great thing to hear. Also scary because of all the disappointment I have already encountered and knowing how emotional this gets with the tracking and hoping and waiting. I have a game plan. I have broken it down by months and what steps I am willing to take and when I am wanting to take that next step. With my new job I also have more options as far as medical intervention. I need to take my health very seriously. My beer brewin, bacon lovin husband needs to do the same. Equally important, I have to stay positive. It has been more difficult since my back issues being told to hold off than when I was getting all the negative results because I could only think of all the time I was losing. It is a rough road. I feel like I am in a good place to proceed on. I have also realized how I never stopped trying I have done more for the process by losing weight and educating myself than I did when I was on clomid and charting and testing (and sobbing from the horemones). I put myself in a great spot to work towards this goal.
2. Buy a house. We both have decent jobs and after some things are caught up and bills are paid off I will be ready. Just the brief conversations we've had on the subject make me aware that John and I are not on the same page here. I love our house now and I'm not sure I want to leave so I am not in a big hurry. But if the neighbor keeps blocking the damn driveway when I am trying to leave early to get an iced coffee this process might be rushed.
3. Do something for myself. I think I have narrowed this down to my hobbies of picture taking (must get that camera ASAP) cooking and I want to sew. I want to get involved with things and learn new skills. John found out this year he loves yard work. His passion makes me want to find my passion.
4. Go to Hawaii. (Or save a buy that house and have baby)
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