good at losing weight....

I own every weight loss book ever created. Okay that is not true, but I have read a lot of them and researched even more.  I am not a trendy diet follower, I am just really fascinated by diets. I consider myself really weight loss savvy.  Why? I Nicole Marie Sivak am a pro at losing weight.  Why?  I am even better at gaining weight.  About five years ago after my 26th birthday I made a promise to lose weight. I was a big girl (about my size now actually).  Before this I would try here and there but nothing serious.  I signed up for Weight Watchers and the weight came off.  I was so strict and so focused on counting points and going to meetings. I joined a gym and worked out about 3 times a week and the gym put me on billboards LOST 100 POUNDS!!! Total, I lost 116 lbs and was looking really good. Well I look back and say that, I was never satisfied.   I had a number on the scale I wanted to reach and I never did.  About this time something changed in my life, enter John.  I have stated before, it is NOT John's fault I started gaining weight but love makes you do funny things... like eat French fries.

    

Me-at my thinnest (eating soy ice cream because I was going thru my vegan phase)

Once John proposed I started trying to lose weight again.  I ordered my dress two sizes smaller and started at it yet again. I was once again focused and determined.  I had an expensive dress on the line...

Wedding day. 25lbs lost of the 60 I gained

The year I lost weight I concentrated mostly on my diet and wasn't too focused on working out.  The months before my wedding I was highly focused on working out and was less strict about my diet. I was in the best shape of my life as far as endurance and stamina in my workouts/running.   But after the wedding I was burnt out from 2 a day work outs 6 days a week. And the weight came back and FAST. 

My weight gain became an issue with my mood and obviously my fertility. This April I decided to go to a nutritionist. I had a chip on my shoulder thinking I knew how to lose weight I have done it numerous times before. I haven't learned anything from my weight loss/gain saga.  I go back to old habits once I reach a goal. 

I don't have a number or scale goal this time. I don't have an event to get ready for.  I just want to be the best version of myself.  I want to get pregnant. I want to be at a safe weight that allows me to have a healthy pregnancy. I want to run a 5k (I might not really want to but I want to say I have).  I want to rid my diet of processed foods.  I want to enjoy working out (again). 

Basically what I want to tell myself is stop being good at losing weight and start being good at being healthy.  You know what you are doing, just do it and let nature take its course. 

SIDE NOTE: My husband has also lost some serious inches.  And if you are more interested in his diet plan let me tell you about it.

1. Eat Bacon

2. Drink Beer

3. Make somewhat healthy lunches

4. If you want something fried- eat it

5. Eat half of your dinner. because your too tired to finish it or because you are wasting daylight because....

6. Do yard work 5 hours a day m-f and 8 hours a day on the weekends